first anniversary!!!
Human relations are a plethora of emotions. U need to be in a relation to see the beauty of one. Each relation has its own shades, rules and boundaries, the beauty of doing things by staying in those boundaries is the beauty of human mind.
We all have dreams…dreams of doing things at our will….achieving things and reaching places we always dreamed of…but living a life of constant surprises…continual sustaining tactics is the most challenging part of anyone’s life.
Rewinding back to 2 years….what was I?? A happy go lucky guy…who had no set goals…just a vague goal of becoming an entrepreneur, which used to flash only at vacant intervals….the remaining time….just the regular engineering student stuff….the 3 Ts….tindam…tiragadam….tongodam…I thought that was life and I was enjoying it to the max…It was maybe for that segment of life….And responsibilities have to set in
at some stage or the other….they did..in my life through the form of someone…..
I stepped into the United states with a plane heart…wanted to enjoy a lot…study to my heart’s content..and go back to India as soon as I am done with my Masters…never planned to do the wicked things that are usually part of any student who expects to break free in the US….but sure did plan to enjoy..in the right way….
but things do change…and so did my aims and aspirations….
Just as in some cinematic style….one flash…and it all changed !!
In came new targets…new aspirations and with them the urge to perform the previously unthought…
People refused to help…tried to pull me back…advised to step back and even tried to back stab….but one thing…the title that my dad frequently presents me with…’mondodu’ …helped me stay put….
People say that u need to plan…I had no plan…I just went the plain and straight way….as it happens in movies…I saw people with plans overtake me…ridicule me….even brought me to my knees…I cried…crumbled….even thought of giving up….but the fist…just didnt open up…
And presto….there came success….
I thought that was it…I had success…but no…it was just the beginning of an another phase…
A harder phase…where u cant judge if your decisions/arguements are right or wrong….confrontations with her and with people around…Then came along external pressures….tensions…everything….
A phase came in when the desire set in to break free and run away….but ya….the strong grit…read ‘monditanam’…made me hold the fort… And slowly things started to settle down a bit….they arent all set yet…but I sure am that they will soon….
An eventful year/a trailor of the life ahead/an adjustment phase….whatever it was…It sure was great….
and ya finally….
Luv u ammai!!!
