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‘Alternate Power’…the word brings back to my memory the movie Terminator 2 - ‘judgment day’, the scene where Arnold comes back to life after being briefly knocked out, with a red light in his eye. The scene had a lasting impact on me, reasons unknown, but it gave a feeling of reassurance, a feeling that says that there is life after a crushing blow, victory after a bashing defeat….the scene just sat down in my mind.
I happened to see a lot of things in the past 1 month…got to know a lot about life, people, mentalities and adversities of life. Saying all this, I must add, I am a strong guy…really strong guy…mentally and physically.
I start writing down this blog, but end it down pretty soon as I run out of words and ward off into memories. But today I am determined to complete this post.

Last few months have made me rethink my complete thinking strategy, my views, my opinions and roughly everything associated with the person Sandeep Subnavis. Maybe I was wrong partly or completely, but I had to pay the price, quite heavily. People around me, my close friends and my parents tell me the phrase ‘whateva happnd, has hppnd for gud’. This phrase made me think, think about the beauty of human brain. It is part of the human brain’s support system which comes into place in case of a catastrophic damage/blow. I didnt want to travel the standard route taken, where we wait for time to do its healing touch, no thank you,  I dont need it, I am strong enough to rectify a fault in my life immedeately.

I have nothing against anyone, everyone wants their life to be perfect, their priorities to be protected and their position to be commendable, my only anguish is against myself; if only I was more wise, if only I gave more importance to my own life, priorities, interests, and most of all my own people (read family and friends).

So whateva… tried out something am an amateur at, gave it my best shot, did everything right, except selecting the right person to walk the extent with…..No qualms!!
I have people to stand by me, love for me, care for me and pray for me….so this machine is gonna go on, atleast on alternate power for the moment